1) i cant sleep. im too preoccupied with so many thoughts. i just read some stuff, which doesnt concern me at all. but suddenly i feel so glum, and sad, and moody. it's quite sad really. i shan't elaborate on the details.
2) i just want to say how life is so fragile. you never know. you never know. you never know. you never know. i really feel so sad.
3) i should have known. why was i so so so damn stupid. and here i am suffering. i should have known from the start, and i should have been so stupid. i fall into the trap time and time and time again. i bother, but i want to make myself seem not to bother. work is good. cos it occupies my time and my thoughts. at the end of the day, you're just a scumbag. that's one thing about me. i never learn from my mistakes. never ever. well it's time to change now. and basically, i have the mentality that men are just slimeballs. never trust them. it's dangerous to even talk to them, go near them, be friendly with them, even make an effort to be nice to them. and i shall never ever be so stupid as to fall into that abyss time and time again, picking myself up and fall back in again. this time, i'll pick myself, and walk out of your life.
i'm fine really. no as in im not THAT affected. but it's amazing how guys can be so smooth with their words and everything.. and then they just go on to be complete and utter assholes. oh wells, i always believe all men are like that. in general. no exceptions. okay maybe a few. haha. but really. im so angry. but yet im laughing at myself. but you know what's the solution for a problem like this? FUCK IT. DON'T GIVE A SINGLE SHIT. AND CARRY ON WITH YOUR GOOD LIFE. YAY. i dont want to even care anymore. so tooooo baddddddddddd.
thank you come again.